Homesick...again?

I feel like I am always homesick now. I mean I even miss the cold, y'all! and if you know me, you I NEVER thought I would EVER say that!

I mean there are days that I am not as homesick, but it's a frequent feeling. *sigh* I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my old life. I know everyone needs to grow up and move on, BUT I want to do that back home! haha

I dont mean to sound whiny. Maybe I have these feelings because football season is approaching and I am 13 hours away from our stadium? maybe it's because we have not made any real friends down here? maybe it's because work is wearing on me and there isnt the escape of family and friends? maybe it's because it's STILL a million degrees outside and I am ready for some relief? maybe it's because all my friends back home are getting together for a wedding and birthday party this weekend? maybe it's all of the above and more. probably the last one.

Now, please dont get me wrong, I am still very glad that John and I made the decision to move down here. I feel like we have grown in ways that we wouldnt have been able to if we didnt. We have learned so much more about each other, about our marriage, and about what we want for our future. We feel like actual adults now that make important life decisions on our own. We have learned how much we really miss home and know how much we will appreciate it once we go back. We have explored a new city and have grown as individuals. I mean, not having many friends down here and spending ALL of our time with JUST each other would usually wear on a couple (and every now and then it can) BUT we have MASTERED it! I look forward to going home each day and spending time with just John (and Carter of course!). I know our schedules have been busy and we havnt seen a ton of each other lately, but I get SO excited to go spend time with him, be lazy with him, do things with JUST him :D A few years ago, I am sure we would have driven each other CRAZY being together so much. So, I do have to thank Miami for that :D

I have loved going to the beach, learning a new a city, and exploring. I have even liked learning a new culture. However, I miss the south. I miss manners. I miss the southern accents, cowboy boots, and delicious food. I miss when the weather starts to get chilly. I miss a lot about North Carolina. And if you were raised in the south and ever moved away, you know what I mean.

What I dont want to happen is to regret not doing something. Will I look back in a few years and say "Wow, I am really glad we did that. It was a lot of fun. I wouldnt change anything" or "Man, I wish we had taken more advantage of living in Miami"? Who knows. I just want to make sure we get to do as much as we want while we are here. I know regardless of what it is, people always wish there was more. It could have been a perfect vacation, but there was still that one thing you wish you did OR you got to go visit your best friend for a week, but you still wish you had more time.

My goal is to be content with everything we have done here, to have grown even more, and to have had a good time. The main reason we came down here was to branch out and have fun before we have kids. I want that mission accomplished! And I believe it will be. So far, it's been fun. I mean nothing is ever as it seems and everything hasnt been as we would have hoped it to be. BUT I think that's part of the learning experience and part of growing up.

I do miss home thought. A lot. And I really cant wait to move back.