So the past few days have been really hard for me for some reason. Everything keeps reminding me of my dad and it just makes me so sad. On top of that I have had SO many dreams about him too! Not the good dreams where we are playing together or spending time together, but of the news of him dying again. Just awful. I am so glad I have John because it's made me pretty depressed. I am clearly not over it and have found that I may not have moved on like I thought I had. I thought I was doing better, but now I am not sure. However, I think there will be many periods like this in the healing process. I read many places that it may take a full year to comprehend it all and heal. So we shall see.
Yesterday, I got a card from one of my uncles. It was really sweet. It was a picture of an angel with a super soaker :D The front said something like "When rain comes out of nowhere it's fun dads getting us with their super soakers" That pretty much sums up my dad. lol I know he would be doing that! So it made me laugh and made me cry. However, it was really nice that so long after my dad passed that I got a card. I HATED them in the beginning because it was just a constant reminder of what had just happened. However, now it makes me think that people are still thinking about him and my family and what we are going through. So thank you Uncle Ronnie :D It really meant a lot to me.
So, if you can, please keep praying for healing for my family :D
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