Should I be who you want me to be?

I am sure you are all familiar with the new Lebron Nike commercial where he is asking the question "Should I be who you want me to be?" I like it. The commercial and some recent events in my life have really made me think about who I really am. I have found myself over and over again trying to mold myself to what other people want me to be. I have always wanted people to like me and have cared a great deal of what people think about me. I think that's silly. I dont really know why I do this or why I even care so much, but the fact is that I do it. I know this may sound silly but I have also fallen victim to being who I want me to be and I find that to be very selfish and it gets me nowhere. NOWHERE. So over the past few days as I have been thinking about this I have really tried focusing one who God wants me to be and realized that that is how I need to live my life- regardless of what other people think. I cant do this life my way and by myself. But, God can help me be who I want to be. I want to be who He wants and needs me to be. I am tired of being selfish and I am tired of caring what other people think. If you dont like me and what I stand for- fine. Now please dont get me wrong, I am still southern at heart and I also have a huge heart- none of that will change. I just plan on focusing on what Christ has in store for me and figuring out who He wants me to be. This will take some time to get used to though, as I have lived most of my life trying to make people like me. I want people to like me, but I want them to like me for the real me, not the person I think I should be around them.

I believe because I work so hard at trying to make people like me and am constantly worried what people think I apologize for EVERYTHING. and that is just really not fair. I know it drives John nuts, but I am in such a habit of saying sorry that I dont even realize that I say it sometimes. I dont want to be that person. And I dont want to worry about what others think anymore. I just want to pay attention to what God wants. He has given me SO much in this life that I am so very grateful for. A wonderful husband that words really cant describe, a very loving family, the ability to get 2 degrees, and has provided me with an amazing job and above wonderful friends. I dont want to waste all that on trying to be someone everyone else wants me to be. I want to be the me Christ wants because that's who my husband, family, and friends love :D